bonjour, starbuck--i hate to say this, but i'm beginning to think that it does. i've been diagnosed with bpd as well as major depression, anxiety, ptsd, and adult add. all those added up mean that i haven't been able to hold down a full time job in years. i've had three hospitalizations; no fun and they did no good. actually drove me deeper into depression.

like you, i am very educated and very intelligent. those two things make it seem like i should be able to hold down a good job. however, in the words of a former therapist, i am "not able to function in a competitive workforce for renumeration."

one psychiatrist i saw said i was "extremely intelligent, a genius even, but an emotional wreck," and basically that there was little hope for me.

one of my problems is that i am unable to function in the mornings, so an 8 to 5 job is out of the question.

oh, i babble on. sorry. your question just opened up something in me i'd been afraid to look at.

hope all is well in your part of the world.

oh, yeah, let me just say this. your english is a helluva lot better than my francais.