This is exactly what my parents are like , i like them and i know they don't hate me but i owe my social phobia and my garbage personality to them , they are not bad parents .. but if i have kids one day " and that will never happen " i will treat them completely different .. not like the way my parents raised me up , i think i would make a good father , but i don't want kids even if i got rid of my social phobia and became a very social person .. not because i don't like them or something no but this life is really tough . i am imagining if they asked me before i was born if i would like to come into this life or not .. of course my answer would be no thanks ..