I think I understand what you are saying. It sounds like you have a hard time being home all day sometimes. I teach 2nd grade and am home a lot in the summer with my two sons. As much as I love my sons, I am learning that I don't do as well emotionally in the summer as I do during the school year. I think for me it is the structure, I need more structure than just hanging around the house and such. I try to fill my time also, sometimes successfully. Trips to the park, swimming, other little outings. Not sure it's exactly the same, but I think I get what you are saying.
Thanks for posting, and if you ever want to talk during the day I'm around too most of the time.
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