I read that extract of Yalom's before starting with my therapist; and hadn't realised what an impact it had on me until I realised that I really believed my T was totally disgusted by me and was viewing me in the same way yalom viewed his client ... I found I'd been holding back things, jumping to conclusions and basically merging Yalom's views with my T's .. even though T didn't think those things. Still very hard for me now; and I do the same thing with everyone, on and offline ... assume they will hate me because of my size and never accept me; so I totally understand your feelings and thoughts with this