what I'm basically gettin' at here is that I'm just really the F tired, not today now but in general...but somedays it hit's me hard in the head that it's never been easy and it's been going on and on dis-easy and feel drained exhausted like my illness is constantly hunting me down and I'm forever on the run whats it gonna do next? where can I hide?....I'm just so damn over it!

seems the best of me has been and gone
and the me thats left's just hangin' on
it really once was such a thrill
to be all free not mentally ill

...the ups and downs can kill the soul
forever climbing out of the hole

unfair this thing this life this test
all I ever done was do my best

burnin' out I need to rest.

(way too cheerful for my own good!)