Try to remember this is about paperwork; very impersonal really. It's just filling out forms, yadda yadda. So have you not taken any steps at all to get this done? What is your fear? Yes, your T/pdoc may so she won't/can't do it, but if she does it will be a business decision for her, not a personal one. And you have a second option, the GP. For you, it is all personal, but you need to try to approach this as all business. It is stuff that just has to get done one way or another.

When my sister became so ill and had to have her bone marrow transplant, it was clear that working was something in her life that was never going to be possible for her again. I sat with her once we got her home from the hospital and spent hours and hours filling out the paper work for her because she was physically unable to write at that point. I asked the questions and she answered and I wrote what she told me to write. It was very personal to us both, and we would have liked to just not have to do it in the first place, but it had to get done. So, we put on our business faces and forced our way through pages and pages of questions and years and years of medical history. Staying stuck and not doing it because it was scary to look at and pretty depressing to go over was just something that we had to realize was just not an option.

Just make yourself do what you have to do because this really is a business matter in your life that you are just going to have to force your way through. Pick up the phone and get started. The getting started is the biggest hurdle.