I have been following the posts on this thread with much interest. I only interpreted yalom's text from your comments because I do not want to read something that will spark my hurt and anger.
I am treated for bipolar, csa, and substance abuse; however, the issue that is biggest to me in my life, and the one I am not treated for, is self-image. I am a middle-aged, overweight woman, and I am extremely intimidated by those who I judge as superior in the looks and weight department. I realize my self-image problems are my own, and those who are treating me could probably help me if I let them; however, my providers are much more fit and in most cases younger than me.
Stereotypes and disgust such as yalom's are so hard to deal with. I can hate him, but that doesn't help me. I can sit here in tears, as I am now, but that doesn't help me either. The question is, how do I take this and help myself instead of hurting? Do I get rid of all of my providers who, other than being "cursed" with youth, good looks and good health, are the most competent I have found in their respective fields?
I don't have any answers, and I am probably just rambling random thoughts, but I do know that I have to find a way to let others' prejudices not hurt me. I also need to find a way to not be so paranoid about what others "see" when they look at me. I guess if I could bottle these solutions, I would be rich!
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