i'm sorry you're sad. your T loves and accepts you just the way you are. UPR, remember, unconditional positive regard, always. my T's scrunchy hugs are for ALL of us. when I go in unshowered and he says he doesn't smell anything, but then says, "but I do sleep with a boy dog on my head and he doesn't smell too great...", that's for ALL of us too. These feelings are transference, just like anything else in therapy - my family TOTALLY hates me, but they project it on my weight. It's an easy target. look beyond the obvious, my children.