Thanks everyone, it makes sense just after he said that ive been obsessed with the question , i do that alot. I guess if i can think of it like im not bp just have bp moods then that will help. Im not very bad off anyway i know people who have more trouble the. I so thats a blessing in a way to know im not that bad. I guess ill have to think of it that way so today im gonna obsess over that phrase. Ill accept it soon enough, its just difficult because before i could drink and i miss that still. When i was down i would drink and when up i would party like no one else lol. Well short story long thanks for explaining how to deal with jt and i am looking for a good t.