So I thought I was doing just fine, no warning sighs nothing. A friend of mine made a stupid judgement and it scared my daughter and I came home from work (after thinking about it for an hour or so) and like a rabid animal with no warning sign I attacked her, verbally and physically by throwing anything I could reach at her. Upon my friend defending herself my daughter (age 16) jumped into the fight by trying to justify my actions "one look at my daughter she ran". It took my hubby to physical restrain me to end the fight.

I can remember the fight like it just happened, physically and emotionally. But everyone continues to tell me a different story "things I don't remember saying or doing" Apparently I got a few good hits in on her, and on my hubby during his attempt to restrain me. My daughter said "I thought you were going to kill her, you didn't even look like yourself" I was angry but never would I ever feel the need to "attempt to kill anyone". I'd call them all full of lies expect my friend and my hubby has markings to prove it all. The hubby held me down until I broke down and cried forever it felt like. Later in the night my friend calls me to a "neutral" area and asked for forgiveness!!! She apologized for scaring my daughter, if anything it should have been ME asking for forgiveness. She tell me "we are best friends forever, we may fight, hate each other and sometimes just be pure insane, but we will always love each other for who we are" (She is bipolar similar than I but not as extensive as i am" Any way enough said.........

Still today I look in the mirror and not sure who is looking back at me?