I know what you mean. This happens when you can hear the page change in the chapters of your life. I had a ****** and lonely life as well. I decided to relocate and change jobs. Now I am at a better working environment with a new set of people to meet. I am still quite lonely and I don't make friends that easily but I am hoping to come out of my shell soon. So, if life sucks, make a big change somewhere and take a different turn.