I suppose your right well I know your right. Thanks for the advice. ill def make notes. I wish I had done that today I promised to many things but oh well Im bad about not saying no thats unrelated to mania btw just me.

yeah my poor baby, I cant believe I did that to her I thought for some reason that it would work when it didnt I drove her home suprised I didnt get pulled over. Ran in the house to grab the gun my friend was there and saved my life by tackleing me we got in a fight but he handcuffed me and took me to the er. Why did I do it, well I was and still am tired of fighting, I had some good ups but the downs where so bad it was unbearable they are bearable now. I just wanted it to stop.

Your right my grandma could be asking for money all the time and she has always been there for me no matter what when my family wasn't so I guess ill hold my tounge and continue to do what I do.