My appt yesterday went well. My counselor validated a lot of my feelings. I actually didn't even cry bc maybe I was done crying, idk. I ended up leaving and feeling better than I have in a while....about everything, the break up, being alone. There is a lot we still need to work on, and I laid it all out on the table for her.

So we shall see. She said give the meds another week to work and see how I am. She did say if I'm feeling suicidal again to go directly to the ER. I have heard that many times the nurses in ERs brush suicidal patients off bc they don't understand them. Idk, I don't want to be treated like I'm stupid or I don't have all my marbles. I do! I'm just going through a tough time is all.

Anyhow, I'm doing better today. I have been eating better and feel a little better physically. Although I still not sleeping well, I am finding I am thankful for some things, like my dogs, their wet noses, etc. I want to enjoy life I just don't quite know how just yet or how to appreciate it. Anyhow, baby steps.