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Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
d_h....I'm angry at those idiots just reading at the top and I know thats no help to you now and I wish I was there to decide casually which of their body parts to fracture I got your back I do.
I got chucked around a bit because I was so damn small all the way through school....skipped classes and tried to grow at the gym to fight back!
how did you hold onto that inner beauty?...
I would be kidding myself if I knew how to respond to you here you have skills very few have, a gift...
you kept her safe? yeh?...hidden, the real beautiful you inside...
I can't write how good that is d_h
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Well, I don't think I did keep her alive. I think she kept me alive actually.... I don't know. But, we're both pretty ragged now. My tough outer shell has some cracks. I think I'm kind of like an M&M sitting in the sun, that outer shell can only take so much. But other me is better at certain things and we talk and give each other advice.
I think I got a lot of skills from my mom. She had breast cancer for 11 years and wouldn't give up. When she passed away it's because she went back to school to renew her teachers certificate, and some idiot went to school with adult chicken pox. Well, my mom's immunne system was shot so she couldn't fight it. At that time she had a chest cathetar in her for 5 years, which the ER doctor had never seen, he said my aunt was joking because no one lived that long with a chest cathetar to his knowledge at that time. The autopsy after she passed said her body only had 5% healthy tissue and the doctors had no idea how she had been surviving, the rest was all tumors and cancerous tissue. It was sheer will to survive.
I try to be strong like that.