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I too am struggling with my diagnosis. My GP, Psych, CPN and Support Workers all tell me I need to accept it and in a way move on. Bipolar is not who I am it is a disorder I have that will be with me for life.
I hate admitting I am not well, I am not safe, I am ill. I rebel against everything that is good for me.... diet, exercise, life changes, acceptance, medication. I am slowly getting there though. Ye I take my meds now but I have blips where I don't want to take it. I don't do myself any favours by not taking my meds. I have loads of books on Bipoalr. Some are American written and some British written. I need Scottish books though but so far I haven't found it.
I think the key to acceptance is to read up on Bipolar and familiarise yourslef with your symptoms. Try and understand that you are NOT Bipolar, you HAVE Bipolar. You can control it ie meds and therapy but you can also not control it ie not taking your meds, not seeking help, abusing drugs etc. You need to take control of your life.
My GP told me last week I am very capable of working and living a "normal" life with Bipolar if I want/let myself do it. At the moment I am letting Bipolar control me but hopefully not for long.
Good luck on your journey of acceptance!
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