Hey. Sorry things are tough for you. Seeing a T is hard. Why would talking and thinking be hard. What a crazy notion. It is hard though. For several weeks after seeing my T I'm very stressed. I wonder if I need a higher dosage of meds. But after a while things so go back to the weird form of normal as I know it and am used to eventhough it may not be what someone else would call normal.

Continue to feel free to vent here. I do it way to often and probobobly lead folks to believe I'm really off my rocker. It helps me alot to dump all my stuff somewhere. Just to think what I think and have it come out in an organized (Simi organized) manner. To feel it as I write it and not be afraid someone else will judge me is a relief.
It seems I can only begin to make since of things if I write them. It's all so jumbled in my mind. Often I have one of those light bulb moments. I do have ADD so it may very well be jumbled and all mixed up. Or maybe thats just the way I am who knows.
Once I start writing it all flows out things I didn't know were an issue that obviously are. For myself I have learned when it flows, GO WITH THE FLOW. Dump it all, every bit of it. If you leave it here it's not all yours anymore. Just having the burden lessoned helps alot. Thats just me though. I'm weird in my own special way that works for me.

This is a safe place to be heard, to dump, to ask for help, to cryout, anything you need just let someone here know.