Thanks for your kind words and I hope you find some peace too!

I called the Pdoc today but he wasn't in the office. I told the secretary that I needed to talk to him and told her why. I'm just wondering if hes going to text me like before or call me this time.

I'm trying to find a way to get some assistance for therapy. I feel so out of whack, and the thoughts at night make it feel like I'm going crazy. If I could afford to go to inpatient, I would do it in a heart beat. If I'm going to live, there has to be something out there for me, I'm just grasping at straws right now.