That's all I'm asking for. I'm asking for something close. Someone I can learn to trust. Someone who doesn't take advantage of my diagnosis. Someone who isn't "fresh out of college". I always get stuck with crappy therapists. And now they want me to just use a caseworker as a therapist for right now, because my insurance doesn't cover anyone else. I have DID. I need my parts to feel safe with a therapist. Not a caseworker who refuses to break barriers with me. I know, because I know this caseworker. I need professionals. Not this. THIS is ridiculous. I am tired of being thrown around the mental health world, like the piece of trash that I am.

And that stupid team leader prepped my old therapist to say all this negative stuff about me. He was saying something about how "I use the program for things I could be doing on my own". And then the leader's boss was like "how about we talk about positive things" and then everybody said I was independent? THAT DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE. I never call you assholes for rides. I make my own appts. I ask for my medications ahead of time. I push all of you away and I'm USING THE PROGRAM!? What happened to "I need to learn to use the program". Why is everything so black and white!? I finally start accepting help, just a little bit, asking for help finding therapists and such, taking some pressure off myself and now I'm overusing the program? WTF ever. Of course I'm wrong, because I'm the patient.