I sometimes feel like I'm here but I'm not here and my therapist said it probably is dissociation. I think its my meds.

I also have anxiety right now, for the last month its been through the roof- lots of changes and stress but I also have had it during times in my life where things were mostly ok. why? I don't know.

It's good that you are not drinking anymore. It sounds like your body was so used to it and now doesn't know how to respond? Maybe talk to your doctor.