Its good to know you guys are here. I am ready to get into a relationship, the issues i am dealing with are mostly over, i feel ive just gone over that big hill and its all good from here on in, and yeah, im bound to have rough days, but i pretty much know how to deal with them - talking is the best cure. When im in a relationship i obviously wont tell my partner about my abuse or the really deep stuff ive said on here, but i would like to confide in her, thats what a relationship is about, right? the whole "staying in" thing has a reason its like it is, see, when i did go into depression i never left the house and for about 4 or 5 months i stayed in, afraid to go out and even to talk to most people, so i lost contact with all my friends. now, 3 years on, im completely different, am a very friendly person, i make everyone laugh, ive even been told i lighten the mood in the room dramatically just by being there, im the "class clown" lol, which i love to pieces. so the reason my social life isnt as active as it could be, its because im just building friendships with the right people, and i know once i get a girlfriend i will go out ALOT more, but for now its fine. i no i will make a huge amounts of friends when i have someone i care for by my side, its just how i work, i cant say its a weakness, dont know if its a strength either, but ive always been like that, but i do always remain genuine, if i dont like someone, i wont be around them, unless i had to. and like i said, i do prefer stayin in for a cosy night but i do like goin out with the right people so who knows what will happen in the future, all good stuff i think.
i look forward to that special girl to come along, and im prepared to wait because i know that when she does come along, its so much more special. im not lookin to have a family yet, i feel i need to live a life first, im a keen musician as i said on a different thread so im currently working on that, and again, when that takes off (and i KNOW it will) my social life will be excellent! it is exciting stuff, i go all tingly when i think about music and even more so singing so its all good. i do hope to find that special one before my career takes off but if i dont, well i dont, like u said "septembermorn", when the time is right, i will find her, until then, patience is a virtue, right?