My T introduced me to the dx slowly. I found out for sure 8 months or so ago but was doing the therapy for it before that. I have worked hard with visualizations and talking. When I notice a change coming up in me, I question where it's coming from. I validate my parts for their thoughts and feelings, even if I disagree, and I comfort them. Comforting seems to be the most important part with my EP's. They are unloved and when I give them love and acceptance and let them know that I am now an adult person who is going to protect them, they really respond. I regard them as my friends who have helped me the best way they can over the years. I had two spontaneous integration's just by soothing and loving and calming, and showing them that the danger was over.

I too, was very tired, and I think it was their tiredness I felt. They were happy to put down their burdens and be one with me, and I still feel them today.

My first parts came forward in a fuzzy way to me. Then 2 of them came through pretty clear. Then about a month and a half ago, alters began to come forward in therapy and introduce themselves. It was all about trusting me. So far I've met 10. At first I worried because it didn't feel real or possible to me that I was talking to another person inside me, but then they would find ways to show me they were there, clearly, in everyday life. They started trusting my T and talking to him. That was a huge surprise for me.

DID is an adventure. That's how I treat it. Whether you integrate or blend or find some other way to cooperate with your parts, things can and will run smoother for you. You will have some bumpy days, but as time goes on you'll find that things begin to flow. So don't be afraid of it. The media makes it seem like a horrible thing. Like it's weird. It's really just all parts of you. Just like everyone has parts of themselves. Yours have just been separated a bit from you by trauma. Love and Peace to You. I sure hope to here more about your adventure, the triumphant and difficult times. Crystal