The whole entire meeting was horrible. I've brought a lot of people in to give me more of a voice, because my team will nag at me until I am in shambles and crying. I have my doctor there, who stands up for the patient. The boss of the boss, who stands up for the patient and even my mom, who I have been very open about how horrible they can be. It's not even them. It's the team leader and she heads everything. For some reason she always feels like she has to knit pick me and argue with me and tell me everything I do wrong. And she'll even prep her team to do the same, and they follow her like little ducklings. Well most of them. The nurse doesn't, but I think she feels helpless about what to do, because she just sort of sits there silently, trying to read me. I asked that the team leader be taken off my case and she was, but she still shows up at team meetings and today gave me a lecture about how I need to work with everybody on the team. (including her). I got up and walked away, saying nothing.

First the team leader started the meeting off by prepping my old therapist (who I adored) to start saying all this negative stuff about me. Finally after about 2 minutes the team leader's boss stepped in and was like "How about we stay some positive stuff instead". And he made everyone in the room tell me something positive. But it felt pretty useless, because he made them do it. It did aid in moving the meeting in a better direction though.

And now they want me to work with a caseworker who will report right back to this woman everything that I say? I don't think that's a good idea. I don't like this woman. I never have. I have always made that clear to them. In the past I just "dealt" with her, but when her drama, started becoming my drama, there became an issue. I am a client. You are my provider. You should not be picking fights with me. I only feel the need to get defensive when SHE'S in the room.