Honestly when he started saying all that negative stuff I thought he was going to say "And so we have come to the conclusion that we can no longer help you". And I was going to fall to the ground, curl up in a ball and thank Jesus it was all over. I can't leave. It would be the stupidest move of my life. They have a lot of power in the community. They keep me out of hospitals, which traumatize me. But if they threw me out. It would mean they thought I could handle it.

I really like the doctor too. He's exceptional. Never find another one like him. Exceptional. He told me today that "I recently read that the person who founded DBT had severe borderline personality disorder. It just reminded me of what your story will be like".