Thank you Crystal for your kind words and for sharing with me.
Yes, I've just started my journey and I do still feel a bit strange about it all however the majority of me is thinking right how we gonna fix this one?
Since I've been aware that this may be the case I have idenitified in past situations where I have reacted in an uncharacteristic manner to something such as self reducing a dislocated ankle or reacting with quite viciousness if I've been humiliated by someone.
I find it difficult to call them other people or alters or even name them, because I know they are not real in a sense however I look at pictures of me and can see a difference in facial expression, a glint in the eye that is not me, or clothes I would not wear if you paid me or thinking at the time I was slimmer than what I actually was. Its strange and jarring the impact of being aware of it.
I do talk to myself and I do argue but there is no strange voice coming out for the other person just a subtle change in tone and meaning in the words chosen.
I do call my aggressive self nasty Lou for want of a better description, but its just a descriptor / title in order to group certain behaviours and attitudes under