i usually have sense of smell shut off - but tonight it is full on and i can hardly stand it. It is not of the present and triggering me big time.
Also having body pain in the abdomin, as well as the memories i will be facing with T tomorrow and the mind holding other memories on its own.
working on staying safe and keeping destructive alter from surfacing.
Forgot dinner meds, so that doesn't help and I can't double them or I won't wake in time for my apnts tomorrow. T always says "call any time" but I don't want to lose her by bugging her too much. I just met the woman in April.
Great, now my hands aren't my own. Isn't depersonalization fun? i took my night meds early hoping that will help and i can just go to bed, sleep this off. Some scary emotions keep trying to surface and I keep stuffing them back down.