I'm a 17 year old male who is a senior in HS. In about 2 weeks my father and I are going to meet up with each other after not seeing each other for almost 6-7 years. My parents divorced when I was 5 and I ended up with my mom while my brother (7 at the time) stayed with my dad. I did not see them again until I was in middle school and I actually wanted to see them. Well, if I think about it now, I may have been excited to meet my brother more than my father. My dad and brother kept in contact with us through the years by calling or emailing once in a while and we talk about how our lives are going so it's not like I have no experience of talking with him.
But right now, I don't feel very excited about meeting my father again. I have very mixed feelings about it; I'm happy that I'm going to see him again but at the same time I'm sure if I want to meet him. Maybe it's because of the trauma of the divorce at a young age. Or maybe it's because it's the fact that it will just be me and him together for a few days and I feel like it will be very awkward for me. There is going to be a wedding at my dads side of the family and he wanted me to come; my mother agreed so I have a chance to spend time with my dad. I don't know what to say or do after seeing him again without making it an awkward meeting.