I was just curious. I googled "is ***lbs at 5'5" fat?" (replace the asterisks with my weight - I'm not revealing it here) and clicked on the first site that came up. A girl with my height and weight was asking the same question. Some people were nice and told her she wasn't "fat-fat", but most people were just horribly rude. I won't repeat their words. Why do I do this to myself?

Why? There was no need for me to Google that, but as usual my curiosity got the best of me. Why are people so mean? Just, why?

Sorry for this stupid pathetic post. When my mind is curious about something and tells me to do it, I have to so I can let it go.

Why do I hate myself. This is the worst, lowest feeling I've ever had. This doesn't even compare to the pain I feel when I find out people are talking about me behind my back. At least I can blame them for that. With this, I've only got myself to blame.

Please don't be rude if you reply.