I 've come on here to get myself through the night- I'm pretty sure that I am soon to be dignosed with Bipolar.

Ive been on Prozac for depression since I was 16. By twenty I had been anorexic, and have been a bulimic since I was 21 (I am 28 now). Since the age of 23 my depression has been getting worse, and I now find it hard to function. I don't work, I sleep for literally days at a time, I drink too much and do drugs to try to cope. Occasionally, I'll have a few 'good' days where the cloud lifts and I can be normal- but I used to be normal for weeks or months, now its only days. I have been getting more and more suicidal thoughts, and I'm scared to be alone because I don;'t trust myself.

My mum is making me go to the doctor again, but I'm scared she'll just say its the same old depression and nothing will change. Plus, its so hard for me to actually get up and DO things in the daytime, so I'm always cancelling appointments that I know I need.

I have been on 60 mils of fluoxetine (prozac) for years now in an attempt to control the bulimia, and I've had CBT.

Nothing seems to help and I don't know how to make the doctor understand how desperate I have become. I have seriously contemplated overdosing so that they will have to help me.

Can anyone give me any advice? And even if I am diagnosed and medicated...will it actually make a difference?

I don't really feel like other people understand how low I feel when I do feel low- it seems like the people on here will understand. I'm sorry I've gone on so much, just feeling a bit desperate.