Hey All..

I can get rather emotional from either triggers, thinking, events going on etc. what have you. Stress basically

If I am able to pull my head out of my head and be motivated enough to just start-- i tend to like to do painting, arts and crafts of some sort, something that may be busy work (i.e. cleaning up the house), or just something- some times going to the dollar store and bumming around and getting stuff there if I am one of those moods for buying things.

I sometimes do great with this. It can give me such a great relief, however sometimes was like the other day-- I started an art project that I have been thinking on for a while- and well it was great while I was doing it, but a few hours later it was if the world just came crashing back to me with problems, problems, and what to do, overwhelmed basically. Intense emotions with anger and hopelessness came about for a bit.

I did note that I had all this, then focused on a cup of coffee and felt extremely better--- i found it odd but I guess that is not so odd after reading that, that is some what could be a grounding technique.
I.e. recognize what I feel, emotionally and/or physically, then focus on an object or something else and what that makes me feel. Oh and then I read something funny which I am sure helped.

It just bothered me today more so than other times with the art project and escaping but coming back not so calm and feeling like a freight truck hit me with emotions, or perhaps I am coming out and talking about this time around due to it always bothers me (probably that)- at any rate, it just really did not feel well-- the best way I could describe it to my S/O was it was like I was doing a drug for a few hours, then came back to reality with no solution or break and just felt so overwhelmed again...

Perhaps the Art project - though feeling wrapped in it, perhaps i felt it was work as well at the same time so it was not a true escape in away?
That is one thing I have thought on here with this today.
Oh and another thing-- I did not finish the art project due to time--- I don't like leaving things unfinished when I start such things-- Some times have trouble coming back-- perhaps that too is wrapped in this? I don't know self, I say.

I have been having a lot of stress lately- Feel like I am going to break at some point either here or there.... But trying to hold on with it all.... and trying best to do some things that have worked in the past that are positive for "break times" for me.... but I just don't know some times.

Any other ideas on this?
I have not been trying to "push myself" to do things that I do not fully want to do, but little nudging sometimes can help with motivation if that makes any sense./

be well all