I know this feeling all too well. Its a really hard diagnosis to accept and appreciate it. It took me 8 years of being diagnosed before i was able to appreciate it. And still 10 years after the diagnosis i have trouble accepting it. But instead of the denial three years ago where i thought "i cant be that crazy" i now think "i cant be that lucky". While DID can be extremeley difficult, it saved my life. Numerous times i was in life threatening situations and couldnt figure my way out of it, then it would just click. I would switch and a part would know every move to make to get us out of the situation. When there was no escaping, a part would come out to shield me from the pain.

They were created to save my life and did time and time again. Before i knew about DID like i do now i thought an angel stood by me my whole life, thats the only way i could have escaped from such horror. But in the last couple of years ive started to believe that angel isnt standing beside me, they are in me, were given to me to protect me.

Although the symptoms are frustrating to say the least, and some parts get triggered and put the whole system in chaos, they are here to protect us. Which they have done time and time again.

Have you mentioned with t the comment he made? Its new to you, the name at least, he should understand your obsessive behavior