I have been suffering intensely for 14 months... never a break from the depression/anxiety.. feel like I have fallen down a hole filled with mud at the bottom and I am stuck there as gases bubble to the surface releasing negative thoughts that consume me. Feels like hell.... although believe hell is just a metaphor for these feelings. I am ready to surrender the ego's grip on me.. the ego's wanting to have control of this. REady to surrender to a power higher than ego. Asking for prayers that the miracle of this release can happen. I can no longer take to live this way and just want gratitude and peace of mind back in my life. I am really to do anything that might help.