Hi thank you for your comment purple flying monkeys
In everyday life I'm not an assertive person face to face and if I think highly of you it kind of multiplies in the drama of questioning you. I kind of have a delayed reaction then later I think to myself Why didn't I say something...
With T he called me on the phone to inform me that the report was done so I could get a referral under medicare to have more sessions with him at a reduced rate. He then asked me how I was and I was honest and I did mention that I was also trying to figure it all out. I just want to fix myself and move on that's all I want.
I find it hard to trust people however I'm naive and gullible at other times
I trusted T however I didn't tell him how his statement made me feel because I felt that I wasn't given adequate time to rationalise what I meant and said goodbye instead.
As you can see I am a rambler.
I don't see him until the 28/07. I was so mad when I started this thread and now I just think why am I doing this to myself. I said to my husband I want a second opinion however is that going to cause strain if he is right and I want to go back and see him? Probably.
Yeah it is denial I recognise that
I just want it all to go away
Thank you for agreeing with the fact that of course I would be obsessed with this that validates me alot
Now I feel embarassed for being such a big girls blouse eesh