I quit my meds (lithium, risperdal, prozac) cold turkey 8 1/2 months ago, I was also dead inside at the time... Withdrawl sucked but the worst hallucinations and cold sweats were over after 10 days. Ultradian cycling ensued for about a month after. Fast forward>>>> My cognitive abilities returned, I actually absorb info instead of deflect it, and I don't need a "shopping list" when I'm buying more than 3 items. Ultimate cherry on my unmedicated cake: my bipolar has been MUCH less active... Italy sounds like it turned out to be a great idea, hope you're enjoying it! So glad you're having a good experience!