I really understand where you're coming from. For years my doctor kept putting me on all different kinds of anti-depressants and they would work for a few days and then in a few weeks I was right back where I started. I never could quite make my doctor understand just how bad it was without making myself sound like someone who was just wanting a little extra attention. I ended up having to switch doctors and got lucky with this one and she is very determined to make sure my meds are all correct. I can't promise you that if you are diagnosed as being Bipolar that the first meds they put you on will help. I've been through just about everything out there (or at least that's how it seems) and I'm just now, one year later, getting some emotional stability. I still have my bad days, no matter what meds you get on and how well they work, the bad days will still come. My opinion of meds for mental illness is that they give you 50% of what you need and the other 50% comes from you. Hang in there, keep your doctor's appointments and give it some time and it will get better.