I won't ask.

Ouch that doesn't sound good . I really hope nothing is too wrong!!! Sometimes people who are paranoid or delusional can tell, well after a while. I get like that when I have psychosis but after a while I can usually clue in to the fact that I've lost touch with reality. I think that goes for how much insight a person is able to have under those corcumstances. I think a lot of bipolars have more insight into psychosis than schizophrenics, probably due to serverity of the psychosis at the time. Of course though bipolars to at times can lack insight into psychosis.

Man it sucks. And I am so sorry. I despise that fact that money should ever come between people and health services. It's something I cannot grasp. I know our health system isn't perfect either, but going to the doctor or getting treatment when needed I really do appreciate. I try to understand what it's like to not have that available. All I can say is that it isn't right.

I hope you can get your needed treatment soon Dark Heart. Your so strong, keep plugging away at it. I'll keep you in my thoughts for good health!