I just wanted to respond, even though I don't really have advice. I have the WORST luck with guys. I don't know if it's just because I pick the "winners" (sarcasm)..but the two serious relationships I was in, I ended up getting hurt emotionally more than I care to say.

I now want nothing to do with relationships, although a tiny bit inside of me HATES being alone. So I know where you are coming from, in a backwards kind of way.
I hope someone has some better advice for you, but I wanted to let you know I feel you. Relationships are weird...(understatement?)

There is a relationship forum on PC too, I haven't checked it out, but maybe worth a try for you?