Hi....Sorry things are feeling so uncomfortable for you, and I hope they feel better soon. Actually as I read your words I thought "wow....I could have written this". Sounds so much like my state of mind over the past few days, most especially the idea of "not knowing why" and the word "chaotic". Do you suffer from anxiety? I do sometimes, and when I'm feeling this way it's one of the hardest things to deal with....especially on top of the depression and challenging "life stuff". Ugh. When I feel this way, although it can be hard, and I need to get things done, I try to just focus on one little step at a time. (In other words....what regretful said!) Sending good thoughts your way.....