We are still playing with my cocktail and im just worried i wont be ready like im still fighting depression which has gotten better th si has gotten better to i havent even tried in a few weeks this is after going months without it idk why i even do it really i guess old habbits, anyway we are still tweaking and im stilll freaking out that i may not be ready i need to tell him about the thoughts i will this friday when i see him because there are ideas i just cant get rid of. Well thanks for the advice. Cheers