As many of you know my last T wasn't good for me and the termination was a disaster. I do take some of the blame as I experienced transference with my mommy issues. When the flood gates of emotion opened i was a HOT MESS on my best of days. Crying, emailing, calling, needing her to love me and too much time in my head.
Fastforward.... my current T, a younger male, is awesome..he exlpains the process as we go. He and I have a conversation type therapy going on. We bounce ideas off each other regarding the why's and how comes of what lead me to therapy. Now here's the rub. I am so afraid to go back to the HOT MESS of things, I don't want to be emotional about things, I want to stay intellectual, neutral a 3rd party... but I know I need to. I told him the with xT , it felt like a forest fire of emotion and I think I need more of a controlled burn. I trust him , I like him but.... but ... I think I am just scared. Anyone have a similar story? Words of wisdom?