*hugs if okay* It's totally cool, I really didn't either when I started realizing that I was most comfy as a submissive and being in a D/s relationship. I read a lot of short romantic erotic stories and it helped me realize that it was what I needed and wanted with someone. So they defintely serve their purpose It may be why I don't enjoy 50 Shades of Grey as much in this stage of my life, as I would have when I was just starting out, I have too many refrences to the BDSM world lol.

A lot of it is trying things and learning, everyone has things they don't enjoy, and their are things I can't do with my Bf because of things in my past too and he respects that. I can't give much advice on being a dom, since I'm not one, but you will figure out what you like and what are hard limits for you as you go along and become more comfy with yourself.

You'll find your way, just remember to take care of yourself and things will fall in place