I'm still confused ... logically so many people make sense But it is a small matter of my pride (?) getting in the way and making me think I should be able to cope without taking stuff. I have NEVER been able to shake this mindset.

Being honest here, I don't have a lot of stresses or stressors or anything particularly wrong/bad/sad in my life.

So shouldn't I just be able to cope!!!!

Having a real reason is so much more understandable/palatable ...