I decided to leave him. When I drove him to work this morning, I told him he was not welcome back in the house, that it would be locked. That's the only way to get him out of the house, when I ask him to leave, he doesn't. Even the two times I have called the police, they insist it's my responsibility to drive him somewhere, as he has no car. So I waited for him to be out of the house, then told him he could not come back. I began to speak about how whenever I discuss something emotional, I get a blank stare straight ahead, not even looking at me, no indication that he has even heard me, nothing. Even when I ask him a practical question, another blank stare straight ahead, nothing. I love that he hugs me a lot, and cooks and cleans, but other than that, he does not listen to a word I say.

I'm doing good since this morning, spending time with friends, had a cathartic therapy appointment, doing uplifting things.

I could not see spending the rest of my life with him, you folks are right, he's a drain. I mean I grew because I had never been in a relationship before, so I learned, finally, what that was like. But it was not the RIGHT relationship..and I have never been married, and he did not want to marry me. Perhaps one day I will see that dream come true, only with someone else

The future is full or promise and possibility now.

I used to think with me being bipolar, that limited me to who would have the patience to relate to me, but I live a pretty healthy life, and there are patient, understanding people out there....

........................just gotta go get one