hey. i think that it is very hard indeed to stay clean when one is in an environment where it is easily accessible and around you 'in your face' all the time like it is. i really don't know very many people who have managed to keep out of it for terribly long in such a situation.

you said it is your x. er... if so... then could you move somewhere else where you aren't surrounded by users?

i think that another thing that can make it really hard is when there isn't anything better for us to be doing. so... part of what can help is to find something better to be doing.

what would you like to be doing?

can you do a course or something?
how about some kind of volountary work?
do you like animals?
children?
could you work or something?

finding meaningful things to be engaged in and meeting people who's lives aren't centred around buying and selling and dealing and using are a really important step in staying clean. basically... most people have a few things that are important, that their lives are centred around. you can't just stop something that your life was centred around without filling that gap with something. otherwise you kind of wander aimless for a while... and people have a tendancy to go back to what they were doing before...

treatment could be an option. there are day programs... though i'll admit that i'm hesitant to suggest them because once again it is keeping ones like focused around drugs at the centre. in this sense the thought 'must stay clean must stay clean' when sometimes the best thing can be to just move on to something other than drugs altogether.

what would you like to be doing with your time?