Hi Dr Skipper - many people don't want any part of spanking during sex and some do...therefore your response is more the average. There's also different levels of spanking - from playful all the way to full dominance(consensual). Did you buy the crop to use for that purpose, with you doing the spanking or are you wanting to get accustomed to being the receiver?? As Typo said, maybe you're not into receiving and would do better being the dominant one or maybe you don't want to have spanking at all. Yes being spanked as a child could be why you were uncomfortable. Do you want to get used to being spanked? Maybe its not for you and the majority aren't fine with it, although some will sacrifice for their partner. Trust your heart and instincts.