(((Myself)))...Thank you...for explaining and reinforcing how everyones system is really different...your support and insight again is very appreciated...I can see where you have adapted so much of your internal mechanisms and interact with the outside world, so much better than I have learned..yet...there is hope, I know it takes time..I have been in Therapy for almost 2 years..the 1st year has been grounding work, learning how the system operates, mapping alters, still there are a few surprises even at this point, now we are doing the Trauma work.

I am very much an observer, I would think most with a background of chronic abuse are, like you stated looking for body and enviromental triggers as to what to expect...but for the most part I do not like looking people in the eyes..just part of my issues..we are working on it in Therapy...part of the dissociative process..it makes it very hard to concentrate and focus on the persons face, at least for me..but I am getting better..at least I am not staring at the floor anymore...well at least not very much...interestingly I have a very artistic side, and alot of my drawings, and works reflect the eye somehow...in a macab way..mmmm..maybe I need to have that analyzed....

thanx so much (((Mulder)))..hope your project is going well !!!!