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I was going to respond to your pm but didn't have a chance. I'm not 100% sure of the meaning behind your dream but I'm somewhat certain that dreaming of cheating on your spouse resembles your guilt in something. Not guilt of cheating but just guilt in general. Perhaps you felt guilty for something involving the conversation between you and that man?
I don't think the dream per se has to do with your DID, however the voice you heard before falling asleep may very well have. Especially if you were nodding off. Don't rush or get discouraged if you can't get "in" or "meet" them. I'm not sure where you read that it's that easy, to just ask and it be given, because honestly it's not at all that easy.
I'd suggest talking to t about the voice. Just two months ago I was getting about 3 hours of sleep a night. Then one night I just couldn't sleep. It was terrible, every time I would start to nod off I would hear two or three people start to talk and it would jolt me awake. It happened all night and more and more voices were filling my head. By the end of the night it sounded like an auditorium of people yelling in my head. I was so distraught that the next morning as soon as my t's office opened I called them begging to talk to him.
He ended up coming to my house (since I don't have a license or didn't have transportation that day) to calm me down. The voices were bad that night, he explained that the voices were in fact parts, and that when you get closer to sleep you let your guard down and it kind of makes it easier to hear them. It's crazy I know, but according to my t all day and night, even when we can't hear them, they are talking :O A lot to wrap our minds around, but there is no rushing it, our systems work at their own pace, just try to keep track, try to be gentle with yourself and them and try to talk to your t about all of this
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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