Why are you choosing to live alone and without a roommate? I needed my roommate (and dormmates) to hold me accountable and on a few occasions put myself on 24hr watch and thankfully had a few trusted friends who took turns(depending on class schedules) never leaving my side (yes, including in the bathroom), and helping keep me away from meds and sharp objects. Get a counselor there ASAP, like within the first week set up an appointment, usually it's free at the school, and make friends. Don't push them away, and slowly open up to them . You never know if they'll understand or be accepting if you never give them the chance. I know, it'll be scary, especially at first, but the more you work on it, the more confident you'll become, and who knows how many others you will help by sharing your story.