I have issues with letting myself be 'seen'.

This is probably common in therapy but I would like help with how to let my guard down so T can see me for who I really am. I have no idea HOW.

I'm doing trauma therapy (as I have previously stated) and it's important for me to be able to get in touch with my emotions (while in session).

I can write about it in my journal, write to my T my cognitive distortions about myself, and cry when the time strikes out of nowhere when I'm alone.
But once I'm in that room I am unshakable. I won't allow myself to really be 'me'.

My T said I am trying to be the perfect patient and wants me to be myself. But I don't get what that entails.

I've always put on a good face for the world, stuffed my horrid emotions down, and went on.

Does anyone have any advice?