idk, a TRUSTING r/s, what does that mean? who can you trust? I have a hard time trusting my one T. I have difficulty trusting my friends. I REALLY don't trust my family. I do kinda trust my gp, but even he has made mistakes, which are partly my fault cos i'm kinda crazy, but still; what is he not doing correctly now cos he thinks I won't be compliant? Trust means to be compliant, and that has always meant danger for people like us.

so I started with 1. just not yelling at my T anymore and 2. I told him that, everytime he tells me something I wiil automatically answer him "no". My mother does the same thing, she disagrees with everybody, period. I inherited this bad bad habit. it is impossible to stop on your own.

To stop it, I told T he needs to stop, grab my attention somehow, and THEN say whatever, and then I usually agree with it! It's weird!

So now he'll go, "well, this just occurred to me, but..." and i'll get all excited to hear what he has to say, and even encourage him. At least this way, I can at least START to work on my issues. Because otherwise, no one could even get thru to me, cos they believed what I was SAYING, because they couldn't hear what I was FEELING. So I wonder what message is being l0st in your translations?