my Iq is prob average.

but im seriously unable to truly handle most things. i thought i was overreacting once until i got into a situation recently and i just...i cant even say but its like..
i cant even...
i just..
im very paranoid right now..
i cant even..
just...idk..

i stopped my meds but they werent helping worth crap anyway. literally. i think i feel worse now off them but i felt worse on them too. so? yea...
my voices are starting to spring up. im under new stressors that i literally cant deal with. seriously...i just..idk

#1 i shouldve never said anything on roll call cause i cant really say anything.
#2 the thing is is that overall im getting worse. im desperately posting here because im about to hit a rock bottom i think again.

one time i thought about what would i do if i ever got to the point of complete incapacitation. my cognitive abilities have been slipping severely. and im just so scared...and i have no one to talk to.